I Almost Ate Like An A-Hole

Just because I created this ‘DELAA’ Challenge, doesn’t mean this shit comes easy to me!

What I mean by “eat like an a-hole” is that I almost gave in to an old habit (numbing myself with food) instead of staying strong and facing my problems like a big girl.

I’ve had the kind of week that screams for escape and self-numbing behavior.

I KNOW y’all know the kind of week I’m talking about. Because we ALL got daily struggles and problems that come up. It’s how we choose to deal with them that make us powerful.

The past 4 weeks I have been laser focused on getting my body right for an upcoming photoshoot. I just found out it has been postponed, for the second time. I took it personally and wanted to eat my feelings. Because shit, what does it matter now right?!

On top of that, I found out some upsetting news regarding a friend AND I came home from a long day of work to non-functioning outlets…..IN MY KITCHEN!  No microwave and no internet. Two things I 100% live off daily.

(Are these first world problems?! HECK YES THEY ARE. Do I understand things could be worse?! YOU’RE DAMN RIGHT I DO. But my point here is that sometimes it’s the little problems like this that are enough to push us over the edge and ‘ELAA’.)

My day wasn’t done though, I still had to go to the grocery store. So, let me tell you, when I was in there I literally almost bought all the bad yums to try and numb my stress and feelings.

But I didn’t. I paused in front of every damn cookie box and bag of trail mix and reminded myself that what HAPPENS to me isn’t the problem, its how I REACT to it that is.

For years my go-to for dealing with any problems or stressors in my life has been food.

I am learning to embrace my inner strength, will power and self -love and say NO to binge eating when I’m upset.

So instead, I reminded myself that I ALWAYS feel like shit after a self-sabotaging binge session. What good would it do me to add that level of self-hate on top of an already crappy day?

So, I controlled my impulses and left HEB with healthy, nutritious food that will help me maintain my focus and fix the problems in my life.

When you take a second to look at all the REAL tough shit you’ve been thru…and you’re still freakin alive and pushing thru daily?! You can totally get past life’s mini-obstacles as well. Don’t use them as an excuse for your actions.

So, just know, we all in this together. Shit’s tough but this challenge will help you get that focus, motivation and drive to kick self-sabotage in the butt!

#NotTodaySatan #StayStrong #TheChallengeIsComing

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